Kaila Says,

Let's just say, I have a Life Project that I need to work on. I have a ton of writing to do, but no desired length. I need people's input, so I'm probably going to end up asking people that I trust. I've been working on my Powerpoint lately. I have pictures of everyone that means like, anything to me. It isn't due until a while though, I need my dad's input. I'll be working on that most of my life now, so yeah.
Yeahh, so I have Powderpuff Football this next week, and I'm going to be drained, I'm used to soccer. But, football's a totally different sport, I've played in the backyard, but not competitively. Hahah, David's parents are here for their grandkids' six month birthday. I don't believe that it was six months ago on November 6, that I had my loves. Cutee. David's a jerk though, I have my reasons to believe so. Luke's getting really strong, but I've decided it was best that he was fully healthy before he came home. The doctors are amazed at such a little boy could turn out to be so strong. Kane and Jacob are like, really devilish. Halloween's been pretty great with them. (:

I love youu.
Kaila Grimes.

I've realized way too many things today.
I've realized that nobody's life is perfect.
I've realized that you can be loved for your imperfections.
I've realized life doesn't always take wrong turns.
I've realized that love isn't just a fairytale anymore.
I've realized your truest friends are going to hurt you.
I've realized that a mother can't function without her son.
I've realized that I could take my life away for Luke.
I've realized that the person you thought you'd be with today,
is the only person who's ever truly broke you down.
I've realized that the one true love you had, has let me down.
I've realized that my heart isn't something to be played with.
I've realized that I have only two people I trust with my life.
I've realized if you're chill with yourself, the rest of the world is too.
I've realized that jealousy can easily hurt someone's reputation.
I've realized that you'll give someone your heart,
and they might never give it back, whether they want it or not.
I've realized that being a parent, changes your mind on everything.
I've realized that someone can love me through anything.
I've realized that no matter what I do, I'm never going to be perfect.
I've realized that ever since March 2007, I've lived my life for one person.
I've realized, I'm not sure that I want that to change so soon.

Hey Meghan.

Newflash, he was born on the eighteenth.

Love, Kaila,
Stephen's baby. (:

 the killers are my absolute passion. as well as the color green, braids, and matching soccer bracelets.
mhmm. (: so, i went to some apple harvest thing with addie and brandon this morning. i'm pretty sure bryan, jazzy, jacob, and kane went too. but, separate cars, i'm sure. there were tons of apples. it was actually really boring. i tried this apple cider slushie thing, and it was pretty good. brandon made me buy him a funnel cake though, and i had to carry all the stuff he bought. addie knows not to give him money anymore. i laughed a couple times. mostly when this "blind" guy, told missy she couldn't pet the dog because it'd "distract" the dog. she decided to tell him that she was sure he never got laid. i've taught my sister well. <3

mmkay. sorrry, daniel&stephen.
i forgot to get online for you bothh.
but, i should be on for now?

loveeee,
kailaaaa <3

 Holy crap. :} Evan is damn hot<3. Jazzy's so lucky to have met him today. But, he talked to me for like, ten minutes. I was on the 'A' Team today, for when the freshman first came. Jazzy and Evan did Link Crew together. They thought it was cute that they both looked like a couple. And, Evan totally likes her. It was nice that they were flirting. I haven't seen her laugh so hard for a long long time. And, Evan's way hot. So, I'm proud of my sister! It seems bad to say that I hope Jazzy fails this year. I love having her in the same school as me. Today was great. It was basically a big pep rally, so yeah.
Alyssa was on the A Team with me too. And, we were with Hillary and Hannah, the sisters. They were a lot of fun, and some other chick joined us that knew Jazzy. That was pretty fun though, even without knowing the other girl. I met most of the new kids. There's like, twenty kids that're new this year. It's so weird. Most of them are black. Then, there's the repeat freshman. I think it's sad how people have to repeat their freshman year. But, whatever. That's stupid. (:

Yeaaahh,
So, I have to get my cards signed and stuff.
But, I'll be on later to help Julie with homework.
So, talk to everyone later<3.

Love always,
KDG . <3

PS, 8/28/09. <3 

 I'm excited like crazy. I have a soccer tournament on Saturday and Sunday. And, it's going to be a blast. I'm driving up in a huge van with most of the girls. Ashley's finally coming to a tournament with us, and that makes me even happier. The competition's supposed to be really hard with year, so I'm hoping we place in first again. This tournament, is usually all ours when it comes to placing. It sucks that we lost Emily to a vacation though. The coach said he needs me in midfield this weekend, so I'm going to be playing on the left. My left foot's been stronger lately, so hopefully it holds up greatly. Jazzy's playing lead center midfield, so we've been working on combinations, and it's going to be really easy for us to score. Hahah, I hope we have a sudden death shoot-out or something. Yeahh, I can't really talk right now. I'm making cookies with the triplets<3. I'll get on later.

Much love,
Kailaaa .

&, Ps, Happy Birthday, Daniel.

 I miss my Dad already. D: I'm starting to believe I should've went to California with him. I know, Alyssa didn't. But, I would've, and she would've followed me too. Landon wants to go to college somewhere in California too. So, I can see how I'd be able to go back next summer. It's like, I stayed in Pennsylvania for one reason. But, I ended up getting the short end of the stick for that reason. And, I regret it.
At 2:15, I have to go to our stupid high school. My schedule is really fucked up. I have a practical science course, so that means I'm in the lowest science class available. And, I'm really not that stupid. I have the same Geometry course I took last year, so I have to change that also. I'm not taking it again. And, I have Spanish I again. So, that needs changed to Spanish II. This is definitely gay. Then, Jazzy's schedule is just as screwed up. So, she's going with me too. And, Greg's changing his physical education course to something really stupid sounding. But, whatever. D: I have to go no matter what. My mom wouldn't just go without me.
And, it feels really weird that it's been almost four months that I've been a mother. I've been talking to Jazzy about when they'd sleep through the night. Except, I've been putting them down to sleep around 9-10, and most of them will sleep until around 3. Then, I can put them back down, and they sleep until at least 7:30. So, I'm proud of myself for coming this far. My mom said I've gotten through the rougher stages of being a mother. But, who knows. In October, this will be Kane's first completed year living with Jazzy. And, Greg's first birthday with him. Jacob turns either two or three in December. I'm pretty sure it's three though. I can't wait for my mom to adopt another kid, if she decides to. I know my Dad wanted to start adopting with Abigail someday. He wants to adopt kids with special needs, so I think that's really great.
Well, I'll get on and talk later. I'm waiting for the delivery guy.

Love always,
KailaDaniellee.

Surprisingly, I didn't mind listening to Jazzy talk about how her life is so confusing now-a-days. Yeah, I laughed for most of it. But, it's not like she really cared. Jazzy's our little laughing stock. Speaking of 'our', we went home today. I got majorly confused though. Jazzy and I rode in her big thing that she calls her Aspen with the quints. Bryan drove the triplets, Jacob, and Kane home. It was nerve-racking to listen to Jazzy on the phone with Bryan the whole time though. Bryan and I aren't really close when we're back at the house. But, he's been talking to me a lot lately. I didn't mind. And, I feel bad because my grandma cried when we all left. She really needs the company. Some young people besides her thirty-seven year old daughter that still lives at home, and her grumpy husband.
So, yeah. I'm actually really glad to be home. I missed David, Greg, and Mitch. Mostly, Mitch though! He's always the one being the idiot of the house, and I keep laughing because it looks like he's going blonde-ish now. Poor Mitchy. Greg and David ended up having to bring in the suitcases. Hahah, Jazzy and I stood and watched them bring all the luggage in. It was hilarious watching them curse and fight over things. I missed LANDON too! Oh my gosh, my poor brother. Him and Addie were stuck in a house alone. Well, yeah. I'm home for the rest of the summer, even though it's almost over. My parents offered to send me to boarding school, but I think it's a little too late. And, my dad offered that like, last June. So, haha. No way's that going to happen now. Jazzy left with Katie, or Kash, as soon as we got home. I just actually saw her walk through the kitchen carrying Kane. Hahah, this is so long. I don't think I'll bother telling you about my latest issue. I'm starting not to care anymore. My dad was like, Fuck you, Kaila. You're going to break our promise, aren't you? Nah. I don't know, Dad. :D

MuchLove,
KailaGrimes.

P.S. -
Lauren, and Hannah, came home for the school-year.

Umum, .. <3.
I can't keep wasting my time on someone who doesn't want me in their life. Someone, who's going to keep going back and forth between people. I can't really do this anymore. I want to, my heart's telling me to. I swear, it is. But, my head's telling me this is just dangerous. I don't really know. I'm going to try talking to you about it. Right now, I'm not even home. I'll miss you until then. I'll love you forever though. I could talk to you, years from now. But, my heart maybe won't ache as much for you as it does today. Maybe, I'll find someone who's going to tell me I'm beautiful, instead of hot. It's cliche. But, it's every girl's dream. <3

Love you, forever.
KailaGrimes.